Slight Breakage

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Absence II, Electric Bugaloo


Went to the doctors last week and talked through all the guts/diet stuff since I’d last been in Summer. Thankfully, we’re both on the same page in thinking (though I think you’d call it assumption from my end) that it’s something dietary that’s either the cause, or certainly making things worse.

So the Doc’s got me booked in for various tests over the next few weeks, with the first one unfortunately being for gluten. I’ve said a few times that looking back, I don’t think eliminating gluten was the reason I’d felt improved (rather, it was eliminating a lot of the other stuff too), so everything’s slowed down a bit while that test gets sorted first.

I knew this would be the case, so there’s a slight bit of backfire going on. I’d read that Docs will make ya continue eating problem foods whilst they test for stuff, which entirely makes sense to be fair.. though after 18+ months at that point of regularly feeling dire, I wasn’t really prepared to fuck around for another couple of months eating stuff I knew was causing trouble. I just wanted some relief and some normalcy back, even if it ended up being random and short lived in the end.

So! On Doc’s orders, I’ve been eating regular bread and such for the past week (80p for a NICE loaf rather than ¬£2.90, sweet!), and can’t say I’ve felt much of a negative effect.. though it’s been hard to tell since I caught a fucking bug in the doctors!

It’s the age old classic. Go to the Docs to get better, catch something there and end up feeling far worse. It lasted about 5 days, but only the first two were seriously bad, with an annoying cough being the last thing to fuck off finally today ūüėČ

Could have been worse!

Anyway! Got some tests in the pipe that’ll hopefully shed some light/direction on things and in the meantime I’m trying to do what I can diet wise to not rock the boat (bar the gluten for the sake of the test obviously).

The entire thing has been confusing as fuck from day one, and hasn’t gotten any less so even when figuring out exactly what the problems have been (originally the helicobacter, which seems to have seguewayed into food intolerances). From what people have said to me and what I’ve read around, it’s just how it is.

Going to the Docs armed with all the trial and error of the past few months seems to have guided him in an entirely different direction however, so I’m hopeful either the tests will discover the exact problem(s) or failing that, I’ll be referred to a gastroenterologist (ShitGut expert) in the new year.

It felt like I was close to cracking it all with some experimentation and a shitload of research, but at the end of the day I’m not a Doctor. Really good try though, that I’m sure’ll bear fruit over the coming months.

In the meantime, thanks once again for the epic patience dudes, and I’ll keep y’all updated on stuff as it progresses :]


Most folk know if I ain’t around I’m unwell, but I just wanted to give ya a quick update.

Pretty confused what the cause is this time round. Got a doctors appointment on Saturday that’ll hopefully get the ball rolling on some more tests or seeing a dietician.

I think I’ve done well in figuring out a lot of stuff over the past few months (considering how confusing/trial and error based it can be), but it seems pretty rough going any further without some proper advice.

Sorry for the delay dudes, back as soon as I can!

Ash vs Evil Dead (Ep1) – My Two Pence


No spoilers.

The trailers earlier in the year for the Ash vs Evil Dead tv show looked great.. they seemed to nail the character and original movies accurately. They were trailers though, so how did the actual first episode compare?

Fucking sweet.

Bruce is as solid as ever playing Ash, competently dancing over the line between bad ass and fool. Good writing and great veterancy with the character make it a genuine pleasure to see Ash again.

The deadites are a perfect recreation of the movies, right down to the smack talk and demented laughing. They were always one of the more inventive possessions in the movies, and they’re kept true to form here. Even the cinematography takes notes from the original movies with the same style chase cams and “battering cams”.

I expected the supporting cast to be weak, but both the dude and lass are doing a decent job so far, adding some nice contrast to the older and more weathered Ash. We’ll see how they do over the course of the season as they settle in to the characters.

As I said, there’s no spoilers here, so I can’t go in to much detail overall, but I’m seriously impressed. Starz (of Blacksails fame, go watch that as well btw) have done a fantastic job and service to the Evil Dead license, which at the time of writing this, I can’t imagine any fan being disappointed. It’ll make for a fine introduction to the movies for new folk as well.

The Evil Dead series has always been a great benchmark of black comedy, and the tv series is no exception so far. I eagerly await the rest of the season.

Go watch!

Go Home Coffee, You’re Drunk


It’s been a rough couple of years for sure,¬†and though the last few months haven’t been flawless in the health department either, at least I’ve (finally) been on the right track. ¬†Elimination diets are fucking rough.. I knew that going in, and it’s been exactly what I’d read. ¬†Long, confusing and you feel like shit for the majority of the time.


A combination of the fodmap lists (ideally the more up to date ones,¬†snarl) and some trial and error has seemingly yielded the first stable diet I’ve had since starting the elimination stuff. ¬†I feel great, and have for over a week now. ¬†Considering I’ve not eaten ANYTHING outside what I’d planned and I’m still feeling great, I’m confident things have settled down (hopefully not tempting fate there!). ¬†I still need to see a Doc/Nutritionist, as there’s no way in hell my absurdly limited diet is a good idea in the long run.. but fuck that for the moment, and fuck trying anything new for a while as well.

A while back I got rid of tomato ketchup.. any one that knows me IRL will know my food gets coated in two things, ketchup and salt. ¬†I consider it tribute, a symbolic gesture of blood and bone to the gods of chaos.. it also tastes so much fucking better. ¬†It was however, doing a serious number on me. ¬†Some folk with ShitGut(tm)¬†can tolerate tomatoes fine, some can only have a little, and others can’t have any.. seems I’m in that last group.

Getting rid of ketchup had a fairly fast effect (I’ve reduced the salt as well.. people have always gone at me for it, and they’re right), but I knew I could still feel even better, so I examined what was in my diet carefully, and couldn’t see anything that hadn’t been tested to be fine. ¬†Oh, except coffee but that doesn’t count right? ¬†It does? ¬†Nah? ¬†Really? ¬†Fuck¬†off¬†:[

Folk know me and coffee.. we go back. ¬†We’ve known each other since we were kids¬†and¬†we even went to the same college.

As you can see/already know, my love for coffee knows no boundaries to the point of madness. ¬†It’s more appealing to me than even smoking was, and¬†I could never get the hang of any self control in regards to it. ¬†I’d imbibe (FANCY) strong coffees like it was going outta fashion, all day, every day. ¬†I’m sure my throat and gut has a caffeinated coating at this point…

Of all the things I can’t have now, I don’t care about most of them and needed to eat better anyway.. ketchup hurt a bit, but I’m already (surprisingly) used to it. ¬†Coffee however, is genuinely gutting. ¬†I’d already stopped some years back, but inevitably started again, especially once a fodmap list gave me the green light for espresso coffee.

The daft thing is, I know caffeine in any form is an IBS trigger and not great if you’ve got ShitGut(tm).. I just chose to ignore that, and despite my love for coffee, I can’t say I’m proud. ¬†Don’t get me wrong, coffee wasn’t the cause of all this, and it’s not even at the top of things that make me feel shite (one a day didn’t even make me feel bad).. but it wasn’t helping, and I need all the help I can get when it comes to ShitGut(tm) atm. ¬†Plus the number of times I’d say “Just one coffee today!” and end up having loads was ridiculous and made me feel like an idiot ūüėČ ¬†It needed to be gone entirely.

So.. how did I summon the strength and sheer tenacity to battle this dark stomach scourge and stop drinking coffee?  Maybe it was the idea of feeling slightly better, or the knowledge that I should have stopped long ago?

I ran out of it a few days ago…

I honestly think that was the only way it was ever gonna happen.. run outta the shit, then don’t buy any more. ¬†That may sound stupid, and it fucking is, but as I said above, I honestly don’t think I’ve any self control in regard to it. ¬†It’s an all or nothing kinda thing. ¬†I do realise that all this pales in comparison to what some folk have to stop eating/drinking, or their health conditions in general.

So with the last two greater demons felled, I’m left with¬†some actually pretty nice food, albeit limited in variety, and no doubt underwhelming in nutrients. ¬†Clearly there’s still some work to be done, but now that it’s all stabilized, I can get back to functioning day to day properly. ¬†It’s given me a base to manoeuvre (never realised it was spelt like that)¬†from, making any work on it in the future vastly easier.

I’ll revisit adding new things in at a later point, but for now, I’m seriously fucking stoked, and I know for a fact it’ll¬†be clearly evident over the coming months, on here, YouTube and Twitch :]